Lucille Estelle Holzmann

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Ralph and I, along with big brothers, Jack, Remy & Liam, are thrilled to introduce to you: Lucille Estelle Holzmann.

Born Thursday, May 1st at 8:36 a.m., 8lbs 8oz, 20 inches long. Lucy is named after her late great grandmother Lucille Holzmann, and her great grandmother Marjean Estelle; a name we have had picked out for over 6 years, and weren’t sure that we would ever get to use it.

Lucy is perfection and we are still in awe that we get to call her our daughter. Feeling extremely blessed.

Stay tuned for her birth story.

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False labor Friday

I am growing the most stubborn baby of all time in my belly you guys. This past week has been a whirlwind. Every day I feel like I am going into labor. What I mean by that is I am literally having consistent contractions every day. Even though this is my 4th labor, this feels so new to me. With my 3 boys, except for a few Braxton hicks, I didn’t’ start contracting until actual labor. Now I am keeping track of contractions all day long, thinking that this might be the real thing.

Friday my contractions kept getting closer and closer together until they were just 7 minutes apart. I decided to call my midwife and she told me that we better get the boys settled and head in. So we got everything ready to go, the boys packed, house cleaned, car seat installed, and then dropped off the boys by Nana & Papa.

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We got to the hospital, checked in and the nurse immediately hooked me up to the fetal monitors. She confirmed that I was in fact having real contractions and the baby was doing great. Next the midwife came in to check my cervix. I was only dilated to 2. After contracting from 12pm-7pm this was so discouraging to me that I hadn’t made any progress, especially because I have been dilated 1-1 ½ for the past two weeks already. My midwife told me to take a tub to try and relax, and that if this was real labor the contractions would keep getting worse and I would continue to dilate. I took an hour bath, we went for a long walk around the hospital, and then she came back to check me again. Contractions never ceased, but this time I was only dilated to barely 1 cm. I actually “undilated”. Even though I was super bummed, I accepted the fact that I wasn’t in real labor and for whatever reason I just wasn’t going to meet my sweet baby that night.

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I left the hospital feeling so down on myself (but first I took a selfie ^). This was my 4th baby, I should have known this wasn’t the real thing. Although the nurses and midwife reassured me that I did the right thing by coming in,  I still felt like such a wussy. Plus it was so much work getting everything ready at home and the exhaustion of all the emotions we felt thinking we were going to meet our baby tonight; only to be sent home to wait to do it all over again. All I can think is that I have one stubborn, sassy, little baby in my belly and my excitement is growing by the minute to meet this little bugger! In God’s time little one. Off to rest and hydrate and the next hospital adventure we go on, I will be ready!

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38 weeks and counting…

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Now that I am in the final days of pregnancy, dilated, having contractions, and baby could come any day now, my thoughts are consumed with visions of what the baby is going to look like and if it’s going to be a boy or a girl. Also my midwife says baby is already about 8 or 9 lbs so hopefully he/she comes soon! I spent pretty much my whole pregnancy thinking it was a boy; for no particular reason really, just that boys are all I know and have, so I assumed this would be another sweet little boy.

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Then there was about a week a month or so back that I thought it MAYBE, might, possibly, be a girl. I even bought a couple girl outfits; of course I didn’t take the tags off or anything crazy like that, but I couldn’t’ help myself. And now I am back to being 99% sure that this little babe is a boy again. I haven’t had any dreams or anything but I do have a strong sense that our boys will be gaining another brother. Since I am not sleeping much, I am now lying awake second guessing our baby boy name choice that we have had picked out this entire pregnancy.flower crown maternity flower crown maternity (9) flower crown maternity (8)

Bump position: Extremely high the entire pregnancy until I dropped last week. My poor ribs have to get popped back into place by my chiropractor every week. So that’s really fun and not painful at all.

Heart rate: 160’s up until the last couple weeks…it’s mid 140’s now.

Skin changes: DRASTIC. My skin was so horrendous this pregnancy….just hoping the scars go away afterwards and it goes back to normal.

Nausea: For the first 6 months it was terrible and even now every so often the mornings still get me.

Cravings: A lot of sweets. A lot of salads. Kind of all over the place.

Sleep: Nope.

Stretch marks: Oh yeah. Not any new ones with this pregnancy so far though.

Belly button in or out: All the way out now.

Wedding rings on or off: I couldn’t wear my ring for quite a while and then one day I put it back on, big mistake. Currently my ring is swollen onto my finger. I am hoping I can pry it off before labor because it’s painful. I just hate to be without my wedding ring.

Total weight gain: 30 lbs so far…and enjoyed every single one of those calories consumed thank you very much!

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Thanks to my friend Shelley for snapping these last minute maternity shots for us! The boys were a last minute addition in a couple photos, so don’t mind their mis-matched sweat pants :)

Photos by Shelley Cullen Photography

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Jack Timothy, 6 year old

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I have a six year old and that sounds so weird. Our oldest son, Jack, turned six last week and I can’t help but feel a little weepy about it. You really can never say “it goes by so fast” too many times, because there are no truer words about parenting ever spoken. Although it does make me weepy to watch my kids grow so fast, I enjoy every single stage of life and each birthday means another exciting year of changes and growing.

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Jack continues to amaze us every day. His love for reading and playing piano make me the proudest mama in the world. I always hoped he would get some of his dad’s patience, and watching him practice and learn piano has shown me that he certainly did. So far though my proudest parenting moments with Jack have been the moments of watching him learn to read. I can’t really explain how incredible it has been. In a matter of months he has gone from struggling to sound words out & reading beginner books, to cruising through chapter books. And the best part is that he really enjoys reading; one good quality that I am happy to say he got from me!

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We let Jack have big birthday parties the last two years in a row, so this year we kept it simple. Plus as much as I love throwing kids parties, there was no way I had the energy this year. Jack had a half-day of school on his birthday, which he thought was so cool, and then my friend Katie took him and his friend Hudson out to lunch, and back to their house for the day to play. Then there was a giant chocolate cake, presents, and most of all family time, which is all a birthday really needs in my book.

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Happy birthday Jack, mom and dad are so proud to call you our son. You bring us incredible joy. We can’t wait to see what the “6 year old” chapter of your life brings.

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Our space // bedroom

bedroomOur bedroom was the last room in the house that we decorated. Until about a year ago it was just a hodge podge of mismatched furniture and random décor. It never really bothered me too much though because I just love the coziness of our bedroom. Letting it go undecorated for a few years never really mattered to me. It is the perfect place to read a book in the afternoon when the kids nap, because of the great light, and the best space to pile in for family movies. It was time we gave the space a little loving though.  bedroom (8)bedroom (3) bedroom (7)The walls are a really subtle mint color, which I wanted to keep, and I knew I wanted to use navy for sure. The coral just kind of happened. The first thing I searched for was the perfect comforter. I found it at West Elm and it really is perfect; hand stamped, reversible, and light as a feather just the way we like our comforters. Unfortunately about a month ago, Liam painted his fingernails with red nail polish on our bed and dumped the rest of the bottle out on the comforter. If you look close you can see the spot. That was a rough day. I kept telling myself that it was only a “thing” and I shouldn’t be upset about it, plus I did leave the red nail polish laying out. But still! I searched for SO long for that darn bedding! We have tried everything and that stain isn’t coming out and of course they don’t make the bedding anymore. Anyway, a new comforter is on its way and Liam still walks the earth a free man. bedroom (2) bedroom (4) bedroom (5) bedroom (12)bedroom (17) bedroom (16) bedroom (15)bedroom (14)  add bedroom (1) add bedroom (2)

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Most other things in our bedroom are thrifted, although there are a few new items. I am sure you will notice that seems to be a theme in my decorating style: mixing old with new. One of my hobbies is searching through thrift stores and in the past few years I have been slowly trying to incorporate all my treasures into our space. However, I am also really drawn to the bold patterns of modern designs which is where the “new” comes in. I couldn’t be happier with the way our bedroom turned out and it was way fun to collect all the pieces that brought it all together. My favorite vintage item in our room is the wooden Pepsi crate that I keep all my make-up organized in on my vanity. My dad actually found this one for me, he is where I get my love for treasure hunting from, and it’s in really great condition. I love the way this crate turns the feel of my feminine vanity, a little more rustic.

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Before I forget, Ralph really wants me to mention the perfectly hung t.v. in our bedroom. He also wants you to know that I thought hanging a t.v. this size in our tiny bedroom was a horrible idea, but in time I began to love where the t.v was and even the size. As you can see it’s on a slanted wall, so when you lay down to watch a movie the angle is perfect and you don’t strain your neck at all. Once again, Ralph knows best. Seriously. bedroom (1)

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